Epic Running Cadence

SCHOOLS OUT FO SUMMAH

Finally, it's over, and summer has begun. Four band camps, a music camp, and half a vacation. Lets do this thing.

BRAAAAAIIIINNNSSS....

Well, as of today, the MOZDU (Modern Orlando Zombie Defense Unit) is on its way! This is the new facebook group created by yours truely in the hopes of defending Orlando from the impending zombie apocalypse!

Its not about if. Its about when.

Join us at
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Before the uprising begins!

BACK FOR MORE

Hey look! I have a blog! As it would seem, Ive completely neglected my vast audience (Haha, like I could keep a straight face saying that one) as to what I'm doing these days! If you re wondering, things have actually gotten pretty tolerable around here. I am now officially on my School's Indoor drumline (just like regular drumline but... Indoors! I bet you didn't see that one coming, now did you?), and now I have made a couple of good friends at the darned place. I still miss my old school (a lot) but at least it's not so bad.

Lets see... what else is new... Ah! Well I'm not sure if I've mentioned this before but I now play drums for my youthgroup. Every week, which is pretty freakin sweet, I must say. I'm starting to listen to a lot more punk rock and metal than I was (Dropkick Murphy's, Flogging Molly, Yellowcard, Disturbed, etc etc) and am rather enjoying it. My girlfriend drives now so theres one more ride that I have in case something comes up. Some would say that the fact that she drives and I dint would be rather emasculating but then I remember that she's a senior while I'm just a sophomore and laugh to myself about my luck, hehe.

Beyond that, tomorrows the Superbowl! Or, should I say today? Its currently 12:53 as I write this... Tomorrow should be fun, especially since I'll be up at the crack of dawn to work out with my dad. Lol, we'll see how that goes. Today was rather eventful though, I slept in until noon being that its Saturday (a past time Im quite fond of) and then we went to Buca di Beppo, an amazing Italian place with a lot of strange... I guess you could call it art, on the walls. It was my grandfathers birthday (on my stepdad's side) and it was pretty fun. Because there were so many of us, we sat in "the pope room" which is basically this small room with all these pictures of the different popes on the wall, and in the center of the table is a little spinning on the platform with a wax pope in the middle. Its just so you can put your plate on it and you can spin it over to someone else and share, but its still a bit creepy having a wax pope stare at you from across the table. After that we finished celebrating at a relatives house, and had this amazing cake. It was made to look like a cigar box because my grandfather loves cigars like crazy. Every time we have a family event all of the paterfamilias (vocab word... basically the fathers) go out and have cigars on the back patio. It was really realistic too, my grandfather thought it was real at first, lol.

So... Things are getting better. Hopefully they'll continue doing so. Expect more posts!

WARNING: EMO POST

Eh, it seems that Ive gotten back into that "unlucky flow" again. Most people who know me well will agree that, when I'm new to a school, every possible manifestation of bad luck seems to flow my way. For the most part, its a combination of not knowing anyone, having no idea who to not affiliate myself with, and just not getting how the cogs mesh. Of course I should probably be used to that by now, since Ive changed schools 4 times now but a suckish day is still a suckish day. I'm starting to work out again and I find that when i get angry, or annoyed, I work out. Dont ask me why, because I dont even know. I guess I just figure its better to be able to punch someone in the face, than to actually do it... If that makes any sense. It seems a lot more often I'm getting really annoyed with things these days... granted, theres been a lot more to be annoyed with but still, I like to believe Im usually better about cursing under my breath when I'm mad, complaining to people, and the like but these days... Well, Ive just hadn't much to be too "giddy" about.

I mean, usually I have that occasional "that was awesome!" thing that lasts me for a while but whats there to be pumped about when you've lost almost all of your closest friends, you have to carry all of your texts book at the same time, you lose 10 minutes (out of 30) of your minutes at lunch making sure you can get your table saved, and then heading across campus to your locker so you can actually get your lunch, you cant do what you love most because of stupid technicalities... you wouldn't be too excited about a lot of things...

so yea... the new school thing isn't adjusting well to me in the slightest but... hey, I got my health right? Oh wait. No. Ive been getting migraines because of so much stress. WEEEEEEEEE -.-

Oh well... I have my girlfriend, I got honors classes, and my new school is starting to march cymbals thanks to some persuasion on my part... things could be worse right?

Havent been here in a while...

So, I realize I haven't been on in a while. Oh well, not like anyone reads this anyway right?

School starts up Monday... as weird as it sounds, I really wish it would have started up last Wednesday, that would have meant Id still be going to my old school... I'm having to go to public school now, which means I'll be getting up earlier, but on the bright side, getting out of school earlier. Other than that, the only other bright side there is to it is that its the school where my girlfriend goes. That should be a good thing right? At least, in theory. Im going to have to make new friends, work my way back up in band (I was going to be a section leader in my old band, but now Im stuck being the lowest of the low. Awesome.) and just get used to all this excess new crap... and my only theoretical bright side seems to not want to have anything to do with me lately. Oh, and did I mention I'm not even going to get to play drums for the jazz band there? Turns out I missed every single band related audition at the new school. I had to swap mid-way through the summer, and I didnt know I would be going to a new school, so while I was totally owning on drums back at the last school, my chances for going anywhere this year were (and have finished) slipping away.

Thankfully though, my slate is clean at this new school. The guidance counselor thankfully saw that I can get good grades when I want to, so I got just about all honors classes possible. Minus english but, if I apply myself and have a little luck, I'll be able to get swapped into an honors class. English really is my best subject to use in the real world, (and not to boast here) my grammar and vocabulary exceed most students my age and reading is something I grasp onto fairly easily. As long as I actually try this year, I think I'll be able to go somewhere.... hopefully.

But, there is something I am genuinely happy about now. I'll be the full-time drummer for my church's youthgroup. Every wednsday I'll be there with the youth band playing drums, and when needed, bass. So that's definately good. Only downside, is that I'll be missing my girlfriend's youthgroup from now on. She means a lot to me, but I'll leave her to decide whether or not she can see me every once in a while for the next couple of wednsdays.

So... there are a lot of ups and downs for this year... with a few prayers though, I think I'll manage to survive. I'm definitely going to need some help though...

"Angels Cry" By Brad Rohrer

This is a song I wrote last night. I had the inspiration a while ago for the chorus, and originally I was going to incorporate it into some artwork, but as of late I've been getting back into the rhythm of music again and so instead of emotion spewing onto the sketchbook, it spewed into my notebook. You can take it how you see fit.

In the corner of my room
Curled up in a ball
Afraid I would fall
I reached for your hand
But it wasn't there
It wasn't there

This fate I didn't choose
Deep in my heart
All became dark
I asked for some light
But you didn't share
You didn't Share

(chorus)
Those who make angels cry
Deserve to die
But why can't I
Make this angel mine?
Make this angel mine...
Make this angel mine...

Left me so confused
I couldn't get up
It's been tough
I needed your help
But you didn't care
No, you didn't care

Ive been forced to lose
I needed advice
To set my life right
I felt so alone
It just isn't fair
It just isn't fair

Chorus

I'm feeling abandoned
Because you won't make up your mind
But now I'm demandin'
You stop wasting my time

I was concerned
Because I was alone
But now I've learned
And now I know

Chorus

Oh, and by the way, if anyone out there is any good at putting melodies to lyrics, I could really use your help. I'm a total percussionist at heart and because of it I'm horrible at coming up with anything but rhythms.

No one has the balls to cut the third wheel off.

Thats exactly what I am these days. Nothing but the third wheel that simply makes everyone feel awkward. Now, of course it bothers me to be the third wheel. You know, the guy whos invited places just because it would be rude to leave him out, the guy who has an amazing way of being unwanted in even the best of circumstances, the guy whos given those little insults every day that have some hidden meaning in them. Well ya know what? Im getting sick and tired of it. It doesnt really bother I'm the third wheel. I mean, its like my uncle says; if theres a room with ten people in it, theres always going to be the one that no one gets along with. What pisses me off though, is that people have to put on the smiles because it would be rude to do otherwise. If you don't want me hanging around, then f***king say it to my face, because we all know you're thinking it.

But then theres the flip side. Why do I even hang out with these people if I know theyd rather me not even be there in the first place? Because Im hanging on my last shred of humanity before I completely lose it and end up being the guy on the news for nothing good. And you know what the really sad thing is? The only time I'm the third wheel is when I'm with the people I want to be with most. The only time I do something to make someone feel awkward is when I try to be the least obtrusive as possible. The only time I say the wrong thing is when it matters most. The only time Im not cool is when Ill be decided the leper afterwards.

Not as if anyone wants to know whats on my mind anyway.

Good God

You know what I hate? When people decide its ok to make fun of things they have no idea about.

I hate idiots.

Things are looking slightly up.

Well it's currently 9:24pm in the home of your favorite spieler, and here I am now, chilling and hoping I survive the next few weeks. We got SAT's in the next few days (Im a private school kid... and loath uniforms) and I's hope I's gots plenty a book-learnin' over them school quarters...

Now then, on a totally unrelated topic, Ive got a mind to study. As you may know, I'm very interested in therapy, and the like, and hope to end up as one later on. Now, I have someone willing to share their thoughts with me on a day to day basis, due to the fact that the has a decent amount of issues that need attending to. Its pretty fun being able to find how things connect in the human mind. Not to mention, im actually getting paid. Really, its only about a buck a week, but there are other benifits to it as well. Im becomming better at analyzing people based off of facial gestures, past experiences, and the whole "tell me about your childhood" thing... well, i even asked that about her boyfriend, which sounded very odd in my head, but was necessary for the topic at hand.

Also, my band... well, its officially died. Recently I've decided that spending time with my girlfriend (whom i get to spend very time with compared to other people in relationships my age) is more important than spending time with a band thats going downhill. We never actually got a drummer, scheaduals were always out of whack... it just wasnt really going to go anywhere. But fortunately, now with my bass lessons I can work on my own, and use my abilites for later on.

So, in general... things aren't looking down, so i guess that means theyre looking up.